Personally, I find it crazy how alike Jim Elliot and I are. The book records a lot of his own writings - journals and letters - and so many of his thoughts, prayers, and desires echo my own at this season of my life. I almost feel like I'm reading my own journal at times!! Maybe if we'd lived at the same time, we would have been "kindred spirits." Maybe it's just the heart of a single 20-something called to a life of ministry. Whatever the reason for the similarities, it's good to feel like you're not alone.
Today as I was reading, I came across this passage, an excerpt from one of Jim's letters to Elisabeth. It's one of those that is so true for me, I could have written myself:
"Oh, what an ache wanting can bring, when I know that the wanting is good, right, even God-granted, but realize that for now it is God-denied, and that He has not let me know all the wisdom of the denial. But I believe, and it is this that lets the living go on...it seems to say, 'Take it easy; we are not through the story yet...'"
Those words have been echoing in my heart all evening. God knows what it is I want, the thing I'm waiting for, praying for. Oh, what an ache wanting can bring. He has His reasons for not giving it to me yet, and I trust Him, as much as I know how. There is an ache in the waiting and wanting, but there is a joy in the trusting and hoping. He sees the whole picture. We are not through the story yet.