Sunday, November 28, 2010

a little sad

I mentioned in a recent post that I've been really missing my childhood. Well, I've still been feeling that way a lot. Missing my sister, especially -- her living at home, our childhood together and all our memories. Seriously, we spent 19 years being together almost every single day. And now it seems like, how can it be over? It flew by!
Now she's engaged. Really?! How is that possible? She's my little sister!!
And I just miss the way things used to be. I'm happy for her. But it's sad, too. I guess it's just now hitting me that things are never ever going to be the same. She'll still be my best friend, yes... but it will be different.
In the Bible, God says that we shouldn't keep looking back at the past, but look forward to the new things He's going to do. So I know that's what I need to do, but it's hard. I don't want to forget the past. I want to hold onto those sweet memories. Yet at the same time... I don't want to waste this season of my life. Because it's going to fly by just as faster (or faster) than my childhood did. And, as John Piper says, "I don't want to come to the end of my life and say, 'I've wasted it!'" God is doing some great things right now and has promised to do some great things in the future. "Eye has not seen, ear has not heard, nor can any mind understand the things God has prepared for those who love Him."
Or in the words of Rafiki, "it does not matter, it is in the past!" haha.
So yeah. I don't want to waste this time, longing for the past. And I don't want to miss what God does today or tomorrow because I'm thinking about yesterday.
I'm so thankful for the good memories of my childhood, and the priceless friendship Briana and I have developed. God has amazing plans for her life and Troy's, as well as for my life. I guess we just hold on tight, trust Him, and keep going!


  1. I know *just* how you feel! I've been thinking about how things used to be over the last few months as well. I just got home from visiting my sister, and wishing things could go back to how they were. And yet, the life ahead is new and exciting, and despite the longing to have what is gone returned, new things are coming. New things that will be amazing and change me (hopefully) into a better person. And at the end of it all, a place in heaven where we can be sure life will be wonderful and always remain so.

  2. I know exactly what you're saying...the past month or so, I've struggled with the whole concept of "growing up", and wanting things to stay the same forever. One of my friends recently became engaged, a couple others have gotten involved in relationships, and while I'm happy for them, it's hard for me to realize that our childhood and those girl-friendships are never going to be the same.

    But like you said, this season is going to fly by and God has things to teach us. I just need to start listening to Him and embracing His plan for me at this moment, instead of looking toward the past. Thanks for the reminder, Ashley. :)


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